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Does anyone know:
If I've had a pain in my heart for the past few days like everything is wrong, and all the bad things I've done in my life are going to crash down on me like a vengeful crescendo...
Does that mean I'm having a really long panic attack...
Or that I'm burning up in an accumulation of everything wrong I've ever done and been, and soon the end will mercifully consume me?
Sending you Love. It sounds like an extended Panic attack, similar to the ones I get when in theaters, where I have to drop down and crawl out. The pain goes to the heart are like that and lasts for days with the worse ones.
I'm trying to hang in there and be a good girl, but I'm scared and I just want to die. I was born broken, it's never gotten better, and I just want everything to be over.
Sounds like you're stressing yourself out. Don't worry about it. I highly doubt anything you've done could be bad enough to stress about. And even if it was, Karma isn't real (in my opinion - you do a great thing and the universe will smack you down just for the lulz) so don't worry.Quote:
Originally Posted by bix
Everyone feels like this at some point, I have felt like a few times, everyone has.Quote:
Originally Posted by bix
Are you an evil person? I never got that impression from you, you always seemed like a very kind, attractive and intelligent person. You got it down in all 3 areas kiddo! damn. Nothing is coming back to haunt you, or your getting "whats coming to you"
I went through some pretty devastating stuff last year, and it seemed pretty tough, I know. It can be hard to see anything bright or positive...
Just be as strong as you can, and things will seem better one day, you just wake up and be good :)
Like this!!
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Bix I wish I could hug you. I don't know the right words to say to you, all I know about these feelings, are the ones I have struggled with myself, and that it is very consuming of the mind and soul. I don't think you are being punished for any misdeeds in your life.Quote:
Originally Posted by bix
It's ok. Just breath.
Take a step back and remember, "This too shall pass".
If the day is too much, just remember that it will be gone tomorrow.
If tomorrow is too far, just focus on the step of getting into the next moment.
You are not alone. We are all here for you.
*hugs*
I sincerely doubt you have ever done anything horrendous. You're a sweetheart, and I know you've got some things that bother you, but don't let you fool yourself into thinking you're anything less than awesome. If anything, the fact that you feel you've been "awful" is testament to what a sweet person you are. Only people without consciences are guilt-free. You know we love ya. If you ever need anything, feel free to ask to talk or vent or do whatever you think would be most constructive.
It sounds like you're depressed and having a panic attack, over thinking things can cause you to feel a sense of a void and cause panic attacks as well.Quote:
Originally Posted by bix
I've doubt you've done anything terrible enough to consume you Bix you appear to be a nice person; you'll be fine and it will go away with time. Just try to calm yourself and not think about things that cause you stress. Easier said then done, I know.
I understand a lot of these feelings, you're not alone and everyone here i'm sure will take the time to listen and talk to you.
"Reality depresses me. I need to find fantasy worlds and escape in them."
-Noel Fielding.
Bix, i shall give you a gift.....one that was given to me by another friend during my darkest days....
It's nothing fancy, it can only be worn on the inside, and carries no cost....It's just a phrase...
"I AM"
two little words, they don't seem like much, but they carried me through the abyss time and time again....
when you look into the mirror, or are full of doubt, or filled with fear, or feel the pains of this world pressing down upon you...repeat these words.
"I AM"
this is not a boast, nor a brag, nor pride, or vanity...this....is a statement of fact that you tell to the universe each waking moment....
You exist, you love, you laugh, you cry, you dream, you dance.....this gift you are given can never be taken away from you....it is yours and yours alone. Each person in the universe can recieve this gift, but no two gifts will ever be the same...In that regards you are unique....
"I AM"
a simple thing, I know....but deeper than the ocean, higher than the stars, and beyond the width of infinity while fitting neatly and close into the palm of your hands...
"I AM"....and you are.
sending much peace, love, and groovy happiness your way....
keep the faith, until then......good journeys.