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[Mylo]

whatever demons (real or imagined) that may haunt your waking hours about your past (mis)deeds, just remember some rather immortal words by William Munny... "deserve's got nothin to do with it."

the deepest screams of anguish or rage will not pierce the heart of an insensate universe.

one also does not live their life in the pit of despair.. and even if life may seem like it at times, remember, there are friends and people who need you that will pull you out, and they don't even have to be a spanish swordsman and a giant from Greenland.

[Schmiznurf]

It sounds like stress is weighing on you. If there's any way you know to reduce stress then do it, maybe try some meditation.
I'm sure everything will be fine. <3

[Malachi]

Don't forget, if you ever need to talk to anybody, most of us are always on Skype.

And trust me, anything you may have done in the past has got nothing on the awful things I've done. So you could feel free to vent with no judgement.

[Obderiath]

Don't forget, if you ever need to talk to anybody, most of us are always on Skype.

And trust me, anything you may have done in the past has got nothing on the awful things I've done. So you could feel free to vent with no judgement.

That bus-full of kindergarteners will never be the same.

[BroFooFoo]

I am sad to here you feel this way I hope you will feel better as the day goes by.

[Jack The Bear]

Hey Bix, Don't let life get you down. Whatever your going through you have alot of friends willing to sit by your side with you, just as OIO did in her time of need, and just as people have done in my time of need, and so many others. That is the most important thing to remember in life, when dealing with depression which to me feels like your going through pretty rough right now.

You have friends, and trust me when i say you might feel like you want it all to be over, but you dont. I've been down that road, i've got the scars physically and metally to prove that i went through a rough time. Yet, in all of it. None of that pain was worth it. Don't let life weigh down on you, Nothing in life is ever so bad to want it to end. Hit me up sometime, We may have more in common than you think <3.

[chrismeyer34]

agreed... i went through some really rough patches in my life as well...been clinically pronounced dead 3x, drowned twice ( luckily my dad was there as i was about 7 when they happened ) hit by a car twice, beaten half to death god knows how many times, actually managed to blow myself up when i was about 8 and that was cuz my dad was swinging on a handle attached to a wire and i figured id give it a go, next thing i know i wake up in the very ER my dad worked in with him gauzing my hands cuz i blew the skin off them, od'd 4x and almost succeeded with the 1st ( 144 pain pills and 6 nitro pills ) and almost killed my next door neighbors 5 yr old kid named aj...had some really ****ty relationships ( my ex fiance being the worst ), lost both my grandma's and they were the things that kept me going.

about the only person i talk to in my fam is my dad and thats cuz he truly knows what ive gone through and hasnt turned his back on me no matter what ****ty decisions ive made ( drugs and a 5 yr stint in a gang )...ive learned from my mistakes and the only thing that can get me down is me, im a 35 yr old guy that doesnt have hardly anything to show for all the bs ive gone through except 1 thing, im a survivor. No matter how bad life gets, i just keep on ticking, ive got arrhythmia and sleep apnea, i went to the docs and they told me after doing a cardiograph that my hearts pretty much screwed and theyd have to do a transplant, well doesnt that just beat all lol...

i highly doubt you have done anything wrong to be stressed out about cuz you're a sweetheart ( just from everyones responses ), youre hot as hell lol, you seem fiercely intelligent and youve got loads of really close friends on here.

dont let the little things in life wear you down cuz its easier to stress out than to walk with a smile, its easier to hang 1's head then to walk with it held high...1 thing ive learned when i was going for my bach in psychology, there's a thing called " negative self talk, negative self image ", when you let those thing into your head, it has a tendency to go downhill really fast...surround yourself with positive people who think as positively as they can and theyll boost your self confidence and image and never and i do mean never say " i wish things would just end " cuz hearing gorgeous women say that bothers me when they have so much to look forward to in life as my man joker said in full metal jacket :

" the dead only know 1 thing, it is better to be alive "

well i dont know you that well, but seeing what frame of mind you're in i think you're deserving of a biiiig hug lol, keep your chin and keep showing us that pretty smile yeah?

[bix]

Uhm... everything's ok!

I feel kind of embarrassed, but also really grateful to be associated with so many wonderful people.

Thank you.

[cypheon]

Uhm... everything's ok!

I feel kind of embarrassed, but also really grateful to be associated with so many wonderful people.

Thank you.

...i miss out on all the caring when i'm at work.... i need a job that will allow forum browsing >.<

so what was wrong? or did it just pass and you're feeling better now?

[Malachi]

Uhm... everything's ok!

I feel kind of embarrassed, but also really grateful to be associated with so many wonderful people.

Thank you.

Glad everything's ok! The forums would be a much uglier place without Bix :/